Since I was a child, I depended on my family to get access to social protection. This kind of protection is not the one when you are guarded by hunky bodyguards which surely cost a bomb. It is also not the one which is caused by my inability to stand by own feet. In the contrary, my life during my childhood really taught me about independency and maturity. The social protection that I got helped me to reduce my social anxiety and inferiority complex. Yeahh... currently, I am in my recovery phase to keep my inferiority to the lowest. A lots of things can happen in one's childhood which can distrupt one's self-esteem in the future.
Sincerely, I admit that I don't have much friends. It is not because I am so egoistic to not to mingle with others. But, I tend to become more universal and mingle with different kinds of friends. I don't mind to be called forever alone by having a minute social circle. I am not really tightly-bonded to my family but I just feel comfortable to share my depressive problems to my family members especially to my mum. She is a great woman in my eyes since she is the only one who can wipe my implicit 'tears'. Although my parents have humble education backgrounds, they know how to educate us well. I am totally proud of my parents to take care of us who always making chaos in the family. I respected my dad for his determination. I can see his effort to find ways to give us a good living WITHOUT asking from others. Both my sisters taught me on how to face the cruel world which can make me slip and drown into the sea of destruction.
Ohana will never leave you alone in the alley of loneliness. Although you are surrounded by joy laugh, sometimes you can feel the feeling of loneliness. You may find you cannot fit in and you may find you are just a puppet in a hypocrisy game. Sometimes, you are just being used by others for their own sake. They seek for you when things get complicated and they tend to forget you when they are in their euphoria mode. You may radiate 'Boredom Aura' but it is NOT a logic reason to make you being neglected. Family is the only saviour who can take you out from this vortex of misery. A phone call to or from your family members can make things much easier.
Friends can be part of family too. But, we as human being, tend to forget and seek for better friends. You cannot expect everybody that you know to be on your side everytime you need them. Seriously, friendship is a serious matter that should not be discussed publicly. We should not declare friendship especially bestfriendship explicitly to avoid misunderstanding. Emotional pain is worst than physical abuse indeed. Don't leave your family no matter how they treat you. Without my family, I am not who I am today. All my success are my family's success. They deserve all the appreciations. But, a family does not share the success. They celebrate it! Not necessarily to be in an extravagant way but in such a way that they appreciate each other.
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